mere saare sukh tere...tere saare dukh mere...

I remember watching her on the bed,
her scars as deep as her emotions...
screaming loudly the very unspoken pain
that lies within her core somewhere...

remember saying this before leaving her,
as ironical as god has made our lives..
that what she wanted most in her life
was placed in my lap without asking...

remember her staring at her work
remember her not cryin as we leave to say goodbye
remember her setting my alarm
so that i didnt miss my flight...
when deep within she wanted i miss it...
wanted we cry our fears out loud...

materialistic i m she says...
where I have understood wats deep within her
she still hasnt...how fearful i have been
every time i have left...
friends family home and love
that may be this is destiny ...
that everytime i meet i have to remember to part..

that somethings in life u cant do alone
that some bitterness of people u cant take alone
that some changing attitudes
need that bumchum to bitch to...

as sick as i m today
i cant complain...
n it feels like god just never fails to listen to me
when i ask something for others..
that when u told me u were scared
that u would fall sick seeing me leave
as u did when u saw dad n mom leave
and i placed that copper idol
praying and wishing
all my happiness would be urs
and all ur pain would be mine...
if only for a night..

stolen from a stolen piece in a blog...lol

"Love is something that is meant for you and you alone... and if you really love someone, you will not feel the need for it to be reciprocated!! Does not mean that you won't be happy if there is reciprocation, but there is no 'need' of it!! If loving someone makes you happy, how can anyone take away this happiness??? This happiness belongs to you.... not even that 'someone' is capable of taking it away without your permission. After one point, even if that someone is gone from your life and you decide to move on.... you will always remember how happy 'being in love' made you, this memory will help you in your bad times. This memory will help you understand so many people around you. Like the poet says at the end of the song... you can keep decorating this feeling like you will decorate a temple, till eternity!!! "

As I wait for my flight… 12Feb 2009 3:18p.m.

So I realized I had nothing better to do than blogging…and thought I might as much considering updating ppl is important!

Hmm…intense 2 weeks…assignments everywhere…On an average I survived on 5 hrs of sleep, with an occasional fatigue requiring 10 hrs till I opened my eyes…

I didn’t eat at home even once…did no cookin….went outside with friends most of the time…
Got the Capstone thing fixed..and in a moment of fit decided to leave for the states…all it took was one phone call…its funny how intense planning doesn’t work..one phone call does…

I m struggling to cope up with myself..I am almost unware and unbothered about my surroundings…its not a good thing but may be that’s what work pressure does to u…

I had a horrible round of salsa this week…was an episode of comedy with me being unable to balance myself…I find a few things hard…I know I was trouble to both the instructor and also other guys…but all- in all it gives me fun break from work and assignments…

My temperament has been high all week…I am not surprised why. But I like it…my anger is coming out in the right form, its directed towards the right people…the cause of the anger more often than not bears the brunt of my temper …

I pray for a good stay in NY, I pray for some good times with my sis and Sherin, I hope I keep my calm and resist the very usual temptation of getting angry

Flirtness and commitment

I love how your status on facebook determines your eligibility to be public property...
That if you know that some1 is single, you can go up to them and flirt around with them like its nobody's business!
A friend of mine was flirting with me today, which I tried making fun of..was ok compared to the one last nite...where I actually was inclined to lie that I was dating some1 n had a boyfriend who would kill him if he knew that he felt that I was lookin hot..
I thought for once what it means to be committed...why people actually do get committed...y people make their lives public on facebook...and lol...y i have started hating going to these campus club events...
Commitment-this word has added a new meaning to me...long term or foreseeing...its weird when you get that feeling when its unspoken..uncalled for...when its one-sided but it just happens because of the love that's given to you...
no I am not public property...u dont have to be with some1 to be called not-single or not flirt material...

n uuummm....great weekend! Hard work from the last few days especially yest. fruitful...sometimes ill cherish till the end life-time..
~muahzz to u b'day girl...n my 'jerry' friend:D

the word that makes me feel secure...

I know y i keep doubting..
Why I keep shifting possibilities...
balance where I look for...
the word that will ever give meaning
will give the security..
from both you n me...

but if different people want different things
the world shifts...
i dunno the reason..
i only know the effect...
either i change what i want
or i change who i want it from..
or shuld i wait till u want the same..

I knw though..
m getting impatient
I culd wait..if only i had that word
that others do and i dont...
coz there's u n me
but different needs..