the art of detaching...the new attaching

I had promised myself
if i was hurt...i will not care...i will move on...
i wanna detach frm ppl around me...i wanna fight this new battle on my own...
ppl who chose not to ask need not know...ppl who chose to silently support can still if they want to...
i wanna detach ...move away frm the world...
i hate ppl who live in it...who conviniently change facts coz their needs change...
who play wid ppl's emotions...prolly thats the reason y god has made them like that...coz they are incapable of love...of affection...that they crave for lust n desires...
i will stand up for myself...coz m totally worth it...i havent wronged ny1...n those who have will pay a price...

UTM..

So...
I should prolly just resort to bloggin...i dunno if it will serve the purpose..
though i do know that is one way i can keep account to wat i do in life..

training...intensive as usual...m glad there are ppl to help around...
my net is finally wrkin...but only on the old laptop...which means i have to the new one n get it fixed...

weird it is...i feel ironical n funny about having a guy next to me in the flight...he was back from a funeral..no i didnt feel my life was miserable or that this guy had to stop jus becoz my heart was feelin weird too at the time...but yea honestly..i have been thinkin about how grateful i m ...to ppl in general...

m disappointed about RD not callin n stuff be4 i leave...but i guess...that short message will compensate for a lot..m worried about a friend who has been fighting the temptation to play with ppl's emotions...to make a trade off between hurtin her bf n hurtin her...today m glad i m in no relationship..i feel odd...helpless..even wid guys around in my life...with friends who cant help the pain in my life...who wanna choose to let me be in one for watever reason...

I feel much stronger than before...its weird i dont miss him...with ppl talkin about him all the time...n its weirder still that i m actually handlin it well without him in life...in true sense of the word ...i feel independent...like yea...wat i achieved in Canada was mine n only mine...n now i feel it stronger that everythin i shall achieve should be mine too...whether i do come outta the mess in life or not is a different story...but i take great pride in the fact of being here alone...ppl left...n laid strong..ppl culdn help my tears ...i was still strong...

want nothin....
really nothin....
n a real real nothin....
so much in life
u do...
so many things..
u answer....
m glad
outta all the ppl in the wrld
who never get the satisfaction of friends...
u've always made sure
some of my true ones were always around...
thnk u !