m excited...really excited..
i can visualize haveli rite now..
i felt for a bit i was in there...where she had blessed me for somethin so not my thing...

i remember that black n white dress....those eyebrows goin up...
i m jus so happy....u're comin...if anythin...its the thought of u around...like a dream it is
that has come true...

i remember that nite...while studying..(not reading)...wen i came back up to see those tears...

i remember those arguments...those eyes...tht trip at ur place...those 15days wid u...

he's always have thoe capacity to gimme back my smile...n that one thought has infact brought it back...

27th September...this day shall jus remain one unforgettable date...

i feel u around...n u gimme back my strength...

i want to get the summer internship offer from Ernst & Young...coz thats wat i truly want...i want to start a life whose existence is based on me...wrong decisions here n there but all mine...

i want my seminar attendance to turn up...

i want to open my eyes to see love in them...not hatred...

i want to be able to not forgive ppl for repeating their wrongs...

i want to read my mind...

i want to be able to see my parents every day...

i want to go to a family...

i want a family...

i want to learn how to skate...

i want to climb mount everest

i wish i culd call that no. again n be like hey wat u upto...lets go to garam masala...i wish i graduated with him...i miss u raghav...n i thank u for all u've done in life...
frm a rezPAL...who prolly realizes today how hard it is to be one..

n i hear myself cry...louder n louder

its so peaceful wen we keep our eyes closed...
but once we open them...boom...the reality is here...
with struggles of life getting harder n harder...
with defeat coming by after the long trials...
sometimes i feel
its jus not worth fighting..
as i cry alone every morning...
as i go stronger in the day...
as i sleep widout support at nite...
i have come to realize
that ppl will be there all along...
but the ways of life are such...
that ur trials are the ones u face alone...
coz its not time
but caring love that heals wounds...
n these wounds are felt the most
coz they had no mothering around them...
sometimes its jus not easy to accept defeat..
n sometime failure isnt a stepping stone to success
sometimes a thousand lies are powerful than one truth
n sometimes its destiny to see urself cry silently within closed doors..