Work, frustration, family, hope and ☺

I don’t understand what I meant today by the words “run away”
Coz that’s precisely what I feel like today…
I feel I am standing in front of a fake mirror,
That’s showing me a picture of happiness in the future…
Its futile…and don’t want to believe it anymore

I thought this would never happen…
But whatever did, it wasn’t sweet, it wasn’t happy
I hate to see the 2 two strongest of my life go weak
And I hate to see myself get stronger
I m already a rock left with hardly any emotions
And I don’t understand when will things get better

I am risk adverse, I have realized
I hate uncertainty
And now I m that scared
That I have come to believe this is as far as I can take it
That no apology counts beyond this
That I know I don’t deserve this shit

I wont run away…Ill look at the fake mirror and make real dreams..
I wont cry, I’ll look at the world and say come defeat me if you can
I wont apologize, I’ll take a new stand of listening to what I feel is right
Tough are times…but I’ll show to Him…I am tougher!