Flirtness and commitment

I love how your status on facebook determines your eligibility to be public property...
That if you know that some1 is single, you can go up to them and flirt around with them like its nobody's business!
A friend of mine was flirting with me today, which I tried making fun of..was ok compared to the one last nite...where I actually was inclined to lie that I was dating some1 n had a boyfriend who would kill him if he knew that he felt that I was lookin hot..
I thought for once what it means to be committed...why people actually do get committed...y people make their lives public on facebook...and lol...y i have started hating going to these campus club events...
Commitment-this word has added a new meaning to me...long term or foreseeing...its weird when you get that feeling when its unspoken..uncalled for...when its one-sided but it just happens because of the love that's given to you...
no I am not public property...u dont have to be with some1 to be called not-single or not flirt material...

n uuummm....great weekend! Hard work from the last few days especially yest. fruitful...sometimes ill cherish till the end life-time..
~muahzz to u b'day girl...n my 'jerry' friend:D

the word that makes me feel secure...

I know y i keep doubting..
Why I keep shifting possibilities...
balance where I look for...
the word that will ever give meaning
will give the security..
from both you n me...

but if different people want different things
the world shifts...
i dunno the reason..
i only know the effect...
either i change what i want
or i change who i want it from..
or shuld i wait till u want the same..

I knw though..
m getting impatient
I culd wait..if only i had that word
that others do and i dont...
coz there's u n me
but different needs..

intuitions...intuitions...

from what i have seen of myself...my level of honesty
I think I have this power now to predict things...
here it is...all back to square one in front of my eyes...

As prepared I was yest. I may be a little hesitant compared to that...
However, there are no tears now...there's an explanation ...and sooner than later
there also will be acceptance..
plans for the day to read...go out for some shopping and smiling when i can:)

hints hints...i get them

life is routine...
times are gonna get hard...m prepared..

Its like Salsa..lol...where the guy leads...he presses your back to tell you its gonna turn...
I feel the moves...but I have had so much goodness that the swirls and twists will only rock my life further...

I am contended with life...May be a little happy...except for being defeated in gotcha...(annoying conspiracies)

dreams on fire...higher and higher...

You Are My Waking Dream, You' re All Thats Real To Me
You Are The Magic In The World I See
You Are In The Prayer I Sing, You Are In to my knees
You Are The Faith That Makes Me Believe
Dreams On Fire, Higher N Higher
Passions Burning, Right On The Path,
Once For Forever Yours
In Me, All Your Heart,
Dreams On Fire, Higher N Higher

You Are My Ocean Waves, You Are My Thought Each Day
You Are The Laughter From Childhood Games
You Are Spark of dawn, You Are Where I Belong
You Are Make Me Feel In Every Song
Dreams On Fire, Higher N Higher,
Passions Burning, Right On The Path
Once For Forever Yours,
In Me All Your Heart,
Dreams On Fire, Higher N Higher

once hurt...twice careful

From this day,

I have really decided to stick to my ethics n...my passion for textbooks...
I feel its hard...to concentrate on everything at the same time...but the paper pen approach seems to work...
feel i have severe breathing issues...I am waiting for the weather to get better...or to get the divine inspiration to go buy the humidifier...
I had a day with just 1 hr of class..
my first experience with students today ever since I got back...like as if the routine is just setting in...
I love the feeling of coming back from home...
I am pinched at many points...I have decided to feel the pain till I learn not to forgive people...I have given up...on having friends...good friends...

i wanna protect the ones I have made so far in life...n I wanna see them smile as they have seen me...
I also want it put this across, that I am not vulnerable...I am just too nice on face to show people I am not...I am not stupid...i am just too polite enough to show that I know they're lying.

At this point...I expect nothing for people...n neither from myself...I just want to see my nani get back home as soon as possible...a week more in hospital doctors say...long...long time...

satisfaction...

I came into Doha expecting nothing, i had a fear that things would change, this trip would be special...so it was..

I am satisfied...there's a feeling a contentment..

I knw that a few things given a thought would make me unhappy...I choose today, not to care about such things...to take them as they come...and not think about them...friends have told this to me all the while...today its jus added some value...

I had fun...spent quality time with mom dad friends...

but most importantly...i got my answers to soo many questions...its like the air is clear...its as if the ball is in my court now and I can act either way as per my convenience to make self happy..After a long time I feel the power is mine...

We fear uncertainty...that adds fear...like many others, thats what makes me unstable...but when you knw for sure...good or bad...the story is clear...there's no uncertainty...there is no fear...at this point comes acceptance...and I m on my way to do the same...