I feel a terrible pang in my heart
And the more expressive I wanna be
The more I fall short of words.
Through the perseverence and caring
I gave you as I stood by your zillion things
It was very easy for you to not remember
to not notice my absence among your million friends

Though I miss you, as I have in many daily errands
when youre in my homeland, and I am closer to urs
I feel Ill never meet you again that way
That if my absence in the group meant nothing
I feel my presence also meant the same-nothing

I sorta decided I wouldnt blog about this,

but I will..coz I cant always be miss perfect ;)

I was there, same places, same roads

At the corner of Dasman, at the museum,

I was on those roads, we went together

That one day, I want to re-live,

with that each person who made it happen

things will never be the same again,

but that day, the 28th of December

was the last day in life,

where God heard many unconscious wishes

the last day where I felt happiness,

I may never be that happy again,

I may never love you that way again,

I may reach that level of friendhsip again,

I may never meet someone like you again,

but i'll never lose hope

cause u've taught me

impossible is nothing!

i gotta feeling...that tonights gonna be a good good night:)

proud of what you're
of everything that makes you
proud I am, seeing u've stood by
that soul that had lost everything
this is your day, your night, this is your awaited vacation
u deserve every bit of this day, every bit of this feeling

With an offer letter from Ernst & young canada,
with many thanks to those who have made this possible
this is Sweta signing off..

This means a lot to me, this moment, how not replaceable you are, how I can not forget you even if I try to, that i have no control on what i want today. Like as if this is destiny and this is written.
To this moment I confess, I have never felt as powerless as this...Its a feeling of awe, a creature like feeling submitting to the One above, you cant, just cant, go against his wish.

At the hospital I saw- :)

God has made the world such, that it lets you see two faces of everything. He has very conveniently then let man choose which face he wishes to see. In these times of crisis, I think I have realized, how hard it is to once see the good side to everything, and anything especially those small tiny things. We complain, about friends not keeping in touch, about peoplr being rude, the way they say things, or the way they see it, the way we see it, about not having enough money, not having enough friends, not having enough opportunities, not having "ENOUGH" basically. We which if everything was according to what we wish for, or what we want things according to what we had planned for, or what our otherwise already occupied minds had envisioned. Today, if not through my eyes, then trhough my mom's I realized how wrong it is that we keep keeping the wrong things, keep getting the wrong vibes. The solution of this state of mind is simple, easy- to think right, and for once to see what God has give us and not someone else. How is has carefully made sure that your life is just plainly, by virtue of no capacity of your own, is prettier than atleast 5 people u've met in a single day, even more if u're careful enough to notice.
Happiness is weighed on a scale of expectations- the higher you expect impossible things(which u do as its God's way to help you see the difference between right and wrong), the harder and harder it gets to be happier.

1) some things I will forever keep private, sacred.
2)But if seeing him again-and merely touching his hand-could peel so many layers of my heart, then did I ever stop loving him the way you're supposed to stop loving everyone but the one you're with?If the answer is no, then will the lapse of time or a change of geography really fix the problem?And regardless of the answer, what does the mere question say about my relationship with Andy?
3)"I just felt desperate to finish the school year, get in a new routine...a new place where I wasn't always reminded of Mom..."-my fav.
4)I think back to Leo's earlier comments today, about how he took himself too serious;y. Maybe that was tru, but I can also see that I didnt take myself seriously enough. and it was that lethal combinstion that made our breakup virtually inevitable.

A sunday Morn, a long weekend, a bright new life

Its possible, or is it not
to take back your love
to trash it and let it go?
life is...so demanding

Its been 3 work days,
its been tiring,
its been a lot of work
some ppl annoy me
but some ppl are jus like that
in this world
with new surprises
i m still happy
I got my first client
and i was surprised
how my schedule said it was my only client
I dont care
its a huge huge bank
just perfectly as I wanted it to be

I miss my free time
And I make the most of it
when I get some