And we think of making this place shanghai

1. a family still in the area of the constant 36 hr past terror including my grandmom who is bedridden...
2. cousins friend shot dead at Oberoi
3. Cousin at Oberoi for 36hrs
4. my parents who were to go oberoi this week
5. that story of her parents escaping Taj..n then their taxi being bombed
6. that threatre, cafe where we chilled jus about the same time 4 months ago
7. cousin who went to check for dead bodies for his friend...
8. a friends sister shot dead at Taj

We are still far from making Mumbai, Shanghai...
we rather just make it kashmir...

still not over the shock of it all...the trauma will take way more than time to settle and sink in ...

When I think like a high school kid:)

i blush wen i talk to u..
u make me smile..want to talk to u more..
i dunno if u r genuinely nice...
or jus using me to get thru shitty times...
but i do know that
i wanna know u more..
m beginning to feel again..
but m scared
of a decent friendship...
coz this feeling messes everythin up...
i kinda do like ur company...
n its weird

i dunno if this is me tryin to escape frm past or wat...
or an incentive to get me over bad memories...
but somtimes in life
u get this vibe
that some feelings are honest
n after him..
this is the first time its so happenned
that m actually having this thing...for some1...

mmmmm.............................lol............................may b i do need a break...

dear god.

i dunno y m guilty of movin on...
but i m...
i dunno y m scared of wats gonna happen next
but i m...
dad tells me i get things late in life
coz god always keeps the best for me in store
god...plz protect me from being misused...
i m really alone
n m alive with with fact that u r protecting me...
u r naa?
please dont let me do the wrong things...

n....the 2000$ and the work permit...

got a $2000 scholarhsip frm school
cheque in my hand..which goes towards my new MAC!
n lol...
my work permitttttttttttttttt
Finally!!!!

When I lit the night....

One more test that i withstood...
proud i m ...that in that pain
both physical and emotional...
i walked through the nite...

a yr and a few odd days...
proud i m..of where i m today
that i fought like always...
against what was the norm..

sometimes did the wrong
but proud i m... that eventually
got it right...n helped others
gettinit right...

life couldnt have got harder...
but proud i m ....that i m jus by myself
a few those supported though
arent nemore here today

when i lit the night...in the snow..
proud i m ...that it wasnt the warmth
of the flames...but that of my spirit...
that made me survive thorugh the cold icy winds..

in more pain than i can handle...

this has been the worst since when I was hospitalized in May...n m not feeling too good...
m scared...too scared to go get tests done still...
m in more pain than i can handle...i wish if i was home in my bed sleepin..
but as work is piling up and I have been a slacker last few weeks...here i m in the library....waiting for it to be late enough that i can go home

Jaane kyun...lol

this song reminds me of tht every single moment i spent with friends...lol

Kudos to cia aman raghav rishi aysha mansi...lol..these 3 yrs have been fun raised to n coz of u all

JAANE KYUN DIL JAANTA HAII...TU HAI TO I'LL BE ALRIGHT!:P:P:P